2 Timothy 1:8-9 (AMP)
8 So do not be ashamed to testify about our Lord or about me His prisoner, but with me take your share of suffering for the gospel [continue to preach regardless of the circumstances], in accordance with the power of God [for His power is invincible], 9 for He delivered us and saved us and called us with a holy calling [a calling that leads to a consecrated life—a life set apart—a life of purpose], not because of our works [or because of any personal merit—we could do nothing to earn this], but because of His own purpose and grace [His amazing, undeserved favor] which was granted to us in Christ Jesus before the world began [eternal ages ago],
In this passage Paul was reminding Timothy that with great service comes great suffering. So be careful of what you ask God for, because you will have to hold up your end of the bargain. The most important thing Paul said was "continue to preach regardless of the circumstances". You mean preach when I am struggling with believing my own message? The answer is yes. Regardless! Are you willing to serve, walk in purpose and destiny while you are wounded? If you are not, then you are not really ready to serve.
Recently I lost my sister. This has to be the most single painful thing I have ever felt in my life. So many emotions, and questions plagued my mind. With all the kingdom work I had in front of me, the truth is I was wounded. I was injured. I was hurting. I was devastated. After about a week or so I heard God say "Get Up". I said God " I am Wounded". He said, "I never told you, you would serve with no injuries". With all the pain I was experiencing, and the total life changes I was experiencing as a result of taking on my sister's responsibilities, I had to still serve. Understand that it is my life's oath to care for her babies as if they were my own. I am in no way burdened by it, but blessed by it. All in all, the care and responsibility had to be done while I was bleeding myself. Care never stop being needed of me while I wiped my own tears.
When you are called to service, there are times that you will have to serve wounded people, while you yourself are wounded. It is in this time that you will realize that "You Were Born For This". Despite the fact that we know God has graced us, doesn't excuse our pain. It is not until you can bandage while being bandaged yourself that you have truly passed the test of servant-hood.
I know now more than ever that His grace is sufficient, and there is no way in the world I would want to move in any assignment without His grace accompanying me. What have you left on the back burner in order to attend only to yourself? Service will many times leave you lonely after pouring out so much of yourself into others. But at the end of the day God promised to never leave you, nor forsake you, and He most definitely takes care of the called and chosen.
Romans 8:28 (KJV)
28 And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to His purpose.
Even when you don't understand completely, rest in knowing that "all things" work for your good. Even when all things don't feel good, they are still ultimately working for you good. Every obstacle and trial that I face. I can face knowing that I Always Win In The End!